It’s 15th of August. Last day as a 17 year old girl. Last day as a girl who thought she still has time to figure out who she is and where she belongs. Last day to figure out myself, for tomorrow – tomorrow I’ll be 18 and I will be obliged to have my life figured out, my plans, my goals everything.
This is the first time I am trying to plan how to spend my birthday. I don’t know why though. Is it because I am turning 18? I am not excited for the day, just hopeful to fulfill it the way I have been planning right now. Today though, a day before turning 18 seems to be more important than tomorrow itself. It feels as if I am obliged to leave who I am as a 17 years old girl and become someone else tomorrow. It just feels weird. It feels as if, turning 18 would change me, make me a normal human with a settled life and fixed plans for her life. Its weird.
Anyway, for today though, I found these two pictures that describe me how I feel about today as well as tomorrow: